Truth is,
I've always felt sad. While I was smiling and laughing, there was always a tinge of sadness still left inside. I know that these happy moments will never last. Friendships will end, relationships will break and I'll be left even more broken.

What I'm trying to say is, I still can't accept reality.
I don't understand why people bother to hate, and why people argue over small, little things and why we abuse the word 'love', and why we contradict all the times, and why we are not honest, and why we lie, and why we backstab, and why we hurt, and why we are so insensitive.

Why do you have to break promises? Yeah, right, you love me and cherish me, HAHAHA, what a joke. I rather know the sad truth than the happy lie. You don't like me, so why are you still leading me on? Just tell me already, how much you fucking hate me and am tired of putting up with my whinings and insecurities. Why are you still faking and putting up with me?

I don't know. Maybe I'm just really clingy, and I want attention 100% of the time. And I'm too demanding, right? Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahhaahahahhahahahah. I AM SO FUCKING STUPID PLEASE!!!!!!! Why would people even bother to, gosh, listen to me? Gosh, haha. Kay, whatever. I better stop before I cry.

Haha. Bye, I'm really happy now. I swear, :D